The rush!

The rush of BARCA v/s MAN-U,

The rush of India v/s Pakistan,

The rush just 10 minutes before entering the examination hall,

The rush 5 minutes after getting the question paper,

The rush of those few seconds when the results are out and the internet is processing your roll number,

The rush when the person on whom you have a huge crush asks you the time or comes online or says “you are cute”,

The rush your body feels when you are the next on the stage,

The rush when your performance gets a standing ovation,

The rush when you make someone proud,

The rush when you steal,

The rush when you lie to someone on the face,

The rush when you are caught red-handed,

The rush when you propose,

The rush when the answer is ‘NO’,

The rush when you dump,

The rush when you are back-stabbed,

The rush when your urinary bladder is just about to burst,

The rush when you get into a fight and your eyes are blood with anger,

The rush when you are determined to achieve,

The rush when you are sloshed,

The rush when your body is frozen,

The rush when you are a devil,

The rush, when your adrenalin loses its rate-count and you are too high in the moment.

It proves your existence as one of the imperfect human beings.

It is ‘the rush’ that keeps you alive!



The rush of completing this blog and closing the tab. ;)

I only have a blog space for you.

With no money to buy and send an expensive gift,

With no flowers to decorate a bouquet to him,

I only have this blog space to give when everyone will sing- "happy birthday" to him.

One, two, three, and I was free.

No more love wishes to find.

No desires to try my luck for one last time.

A resentment to get a soulmate,

No longings for, coffees, gifts, cards or a date.

A belief that I have  passed all the ones God had sent for me, I moved on, and on, too busy to notice that "he" had already happened to me.

Suddenly, my message packs were back, online chats, rather long online chats were back,

Trust me, I had quit the thought of ever having a person who will make me even sit infront of the messenger.

I started to try "rock music" because he like it,

I started to schedule my work so that I can talk to him,

I wanted to play safe whenever I asked "do you like someone?" (silly me)

I smiled whenever I saw his name on the mobile screen.

He said I was great, I found him incredible.

He said I had an amazing life state, I found him at the same.

He said she is just a friend, I felt jealous.

He said I was gorgeous, I found him sexy.

He called me talented, I say, he was intelligent.

It was strikingly fulfilling and honestly fantastic.

Just when I thought of giving up to him, 

Just when I thought, he might be the one,

It crashed,

I am still bewildered.

What happened, I don't know.

I am back to my diligency, trying hard to make everyone proud, him too.

I still count three and consider myself free,

I guess it will always be better this way, may be life is just a long shopping spree.

So today, on your day,

I say thankyou for everything,

for listening to my useless gossips,

for bitching with me about people only I know,

for being patient to answer my awkward questions,

for telling me that you are proud of me,

for helping me believe in myself, and 

for being my favourite actress.

But sadly, I don't have a stage to dedicate a performance to you,

I don't have a song to play for you,

No fancy cookies to cook for you,

Along with this blog space as a gift,

Sweetheart!

I sing "happy birthday to you".

:)

love each other or perish.

Why is that you need to think so much before doing anything?
Why isn't it normal to compliment a stranger?
Why is it strange to fall in love more than once?
Why is it that all aims are limited to big bungaloes, expensive cars, freedom to shop, or become someone BIG?
Why she should not smoke in public, and it's okay with him?
Why can't they just switch off the lights when not in obligatory use?
Why do you turn into a mysogynist/misandrist once dumped?
Why is it SO difficult to say "look, I love you even if you don't think the same"?
Why cant we learn rather than picking gossips?
Why can't I cry in public?

I wonder!
So,
laugh like a devil,
cry like a scary witch,
fall in love a million times unless you find that one person who returns the "I love you too" with everything,
conserve energy (your grand, grand, grand children would also be needing it)
compliment as long as it makes anybody happy,
judge yourself,
sing, dance, fight, scream, run or God knows whatever.
Aim to spread love and peace, trust me it's the most difficult thing you can aim for  because we all are too busy loving ourselves.
At the end -
"love each other or perish"- Mitch Albom